I have often thought about writing a book or short story. My ADD however gets me very distorted and believe it or not...I have a hard time correlating everything. I really do have everyone fooled... I am my son Nick.
Anger...I am the angriest person I know. Unable to concentrate. My attention span is notoriously small...so small it is legendary with many of my close friends. I tend to zone when people are talking to me. Do you zone? Mood swings....I have mood swings that keep me very confused. I feel emotions that are always contradictory to current events. Deep inside I dislike all people...
There is one thing though... one thing I have that Nick lacks.. That is a relationship with one that knows me better than I know me. One that loves me despite all of the inner turmoil and struggles and bad feelings that are going on. One that conducts a personal relationship with me...someone that delights in me. (tears folks....true tears) It is the relationship with the One that has taken my heart and made me his bride. Jesus has taken all of those ugly feelings and thoughts....and has transformed them. He continues to sanctify, and purify. He is making me holy. (Thanks Bill!) I am not quite there...but I am further along than I was 17 years ago.
Well...you all may have gathered...I wear my thoughts on my sleeves. Sometimes I wonder if that will get in the way of me ever becoming a minister. How does one minister that cannot let people into their life or head? I have several friends that keep their cards close...never share their thoughts...their failures....their losses....the worse times they experience.... And I see those friends continually suffer. .... Bah....a day of tangents...Let me close this thought... I wear my feelings and thoughts on my sleeve. Ready to share....willingly....and I always hope others do the same... Together with Christ...we can help each other.
Ok...Closing the Opening thought.... I always wanted to write a short story...called...”Black Like Nicky”. It will be a guaranteed tear jerker... I will do it this summer and post...I am still crying because of the revelation of what Christ has done for me...and now tears come to my eyes for Nick. Nicholas....(and I am the only one that can call him that....or he will kill you) is one of the most special people I know. Pray that God will turn his talents and charisma.. Center it all on Christ....
Oh...last thought...the book. I was thinking of doing something like lucas...and write the fourth book first...Maybe cover my married years.... So many spiritually uplifting stories....plus...stories of failure... I just need me mind to get centered...so pray for that....
Peace All...
Oh...Had to take Justin to the Hospital today. Removed a set of stairs from my house so we can get underneath...and last night....Justin walked out the door and fell 3 feet....sprang his wrist... Was a great time to spend with him....reading “Lectures in Systematic Theology”. Definitely one of Bill's subjects. There are five syllable theological words every 6th word. Real...heady stuff. 4 papers to write in this course...but at the end...I think I am halfway done with my courses and ministry school....
See...more ADD moments.................................................