I can't sleep. I am up due to pain in my feet and I confess to you my friends that I am crossroads in decisions of what to do between my feet and work. I left work Friday in the worst pain I can remember. I am going to see my Doctor on Tuesday and I have the phone number of a local Podiatrist. To do what, I do not know. The pain has moved from the bottom of my feet to the actual bones in my feet and the ankles. Apparently how I limp around due to the neuropathy “hurts” my feet, literally. Have I prayed enough? Have I come before God enough? This Sunday I didn't bring my pain to the Elders attention...it is old hat...but it is new hat too....it increasing slightly more every week and the condition is changing as well. I prayed it would just disappear and everything would be the way it was...that I could be self sufficient ans self reliant. But God has said no.... Over the past months I have received so much prayer it is becoming embarassing...particularly when miracles go unanswered.
Forgive Me All. Remember. My Blog is my sounding board. I get to voice my hurts here. I get to talk about my boys here. I get to talk about my wife here. I get things off of my chest here. In my writings and etc... If you think I am a big complaining wishy washy jerk...well...don't come here. I hope the opposite is true though. I am a man that Loves his God, is still very married, treasures his friends, and adores his children. I am just in a lot of pain right now.
From a Father to a Son
Remember “Bumbles”? Well, Bumbles Jacopec received a lot of my gifts. He is happy most of the time. He is a morning person and loves Star Wars. He has a genuine love for people and I catch him doing good deeds all the time and I see him developing into a man that fears and loves God at the same time. He is my Justin.
This is my Bible. I purchased this Bible in January of 1992, right before I got married. It went away with me on my Honey Moon. It was a very hip forest green. I love this Bible. It is a NIV Study Bible published by Zondervan and has been a wonderful companion. Two months ago I lent it to a friend of mine...and he remarked...”Matt...you ripped out Revelation from your Bible?” Sure enough...the wear and tear to this Bible...Revelation had fallen out and was sitting in the back seat of my car. I thought it was a funny story..I told my friend Mike I didn't believe in the End Times... but I knew then and there..it was time for a new Bible.
Here it is.
Here is my new Bible. The new and improved NIV study Bible from Zondervan. It has a great hard leather cover....and I have to share with you all...I absolutely love this Bible. I open it up....and adore each and every page. I can't read it enough. I loved this Bible so much...and wanted to keep it in such great condition that I got smart...and bought a cover for it... You see I am getting smart in my old age.....
The Bible fit in perfect. It is a beautiful combination. I went out and got two nice high lighters.... This Bible was set. It is the most valuable tool any man can own. I must have opened and closed it 100 times in adoration and love. I put my name in it.... Then I looked at the presentation line.... and I wrote... This Bible presented to Justin Jacopec from His Earthly Father April 11, 2005. And I gave it to Justin. He deserves this treasure. What better gift could a parent give a child?
Yes...Justin is mindless just like his Dad. The odds of him losing this Bible are very good. But I told him how valuable it was and how much this Bible meant to me. Justin got it. He took it away with him on retreat this weekend. A very adult Bible. I am going to get him tabs so he can find the different books easily. When he arrived home from the retreat he got out of the van, he held up his Bible, “Look Dad! I still have it!”
Guess what...my feet do not hurt any more... Time to go back to bed...work comes quick.... Peace