I woke up yesterday and walked down the hallway to the kitchen. Took my meds and began to get ready for my leadership breakfast we have every Thursday. I looked down at my feet, because they didn't hurt. They really didn't hurt. It was puzzling and I stood there waiting. Waiting for the familiar pain to come back and to go back to my normal hobbling which has plagued me for the last month. But....nothing. Was I disappointed! NO WAY!
Thursday morning's are always the worse mornings of the week. You see I bowl Wednesday Nights and I pay the price the next mornings. But there were no sharp hobbling, ouch, bang back and forth from wall to wall pains. It was great. I'll take every morning like that. Please God. You get all the Glory and the Praise!
So I spent a day without pain. No pain meds which really made me happy. I do not like them Sam I Am. I do not like Pain Meds at all....They are my compromise for me if I want to work and walk. I have only decided to use them after I have gone to God and prayed and prayed and have been anointed with oil about a dozen times.... I have pleaded and cried in my bed. But in my sane moments. I smile and embrace Him, and He smiles and embraces me back. His holy presence fills my room and I know all is going to be all right. No matter what is going on with my feet, he blesses me, and I know I am going to make it.
Bless You Lord
You see the pain came back last night quite fiercely. Both feet and both hands. My feet are used to the onslaught but my hands are not used to the burning tingling sensations and they wee trembling. I was not used to all four going at the same time and I was quite tired. I prayed. Then I took the pain medication. My Doctor cannot believe what I can tolerate and the dosage. But 12 years of HIV meds...*chemo-like* my body has really learned to tolerate side effects. I am not proud of it, rather I would rather have the adverse side effects so I could not take the meds..... But, I took the pain meds and was relieved a short time later...and was able to go back to bed. I am up a little later than my normal time. I have to do math homework with Justin. Yay for me.
Peace to you all. Just remember to hold God close and trust in him. He will help us to live with those thorns in our sides. Please God, help me to reduce mine to a point where people will not notice...and it is not the discussion of every coffee table...
Peace