Sorry all. I have been posting way too little. I was taking a new blood pressure medication that leveled me. I took myself off of it. When I went to go see the Doctor yesterday he laughed. "Matthew, you can handle all of the hard HIV drugs, but a minor med wipes you out!" Well, all is well and I have my own needs that need to be filled by writing here. Thank You everyone for being loyal and checking in to see if I am all right. Tonight I have to make Nick tacos. Apparantly he is returning to his old ways and Brisbane is seeing behaviour that they have never seen before. Behaviour that I know all too well. He had lost his level that he gained through hard work by letting go and cussing vulgarities at a Staff member. He couldn't stop himself. I have been at the end of one of Nick's let goes of the mouth. It is like a demon takes over and he is not in control of what he is saying. This is always oneof the warnings that he is ready to explode and get violent, so it is best to quietly combat him and try to simmer him down. But he reacts to niceness and hardness both the same when he is in this state. Well, time to go to my men's meeting this morning. Peace