I am not sleeping well. Racing thoughts fill my head and I cannot fall asleep. I have not filled my Ambien in awhile. I wanted to kick the habit. However, a side effect or all my medications is "May cause sleeplessness". So, for years I have taken Ambien. Funny things though happen in the middle of the night. I get up, almost sleepwalk and make three course meals and eat them. I do not eat regular meals either. I eat like a pregnant woman. Salami sandwiches with peanut butter and bananas. This really weird eating pattern has troubled me. When I binge in my sleep......there is not enough food in my fridge to feed me. One craving follows the other.
I have thought about changing meds. But, l have heard that other sleep meds have similar side effects.
When I speak in schools, I talk about my med situation and their sideffects. That I take medication to manage the side effects of the medication I take for my HIV. In the past, it is not unusual to take othe meds that manage the side effects of the meds that I taking to manage the side effects of the meds that I am taking to manage my HIV. Hence....my protease inhibitors cause me pain (neuropathy) and I take medication to manage that side effect But the pain medication causes me side multiple side effects that I take other meds to manage those side effects. Go ahead.....just call me wimp. But, my side effects are very real, bothersome, and poignant. I depend on my meds.
On a Christian note. Does the taking of medication diminish God in my healing? I have prayed and been prayed for multiple times. I know that I am in the prayers of people that pray every day and faithfully. So, if it comes to having to take a medication to manage a side effect ...I take it. God provided the way and the wisdom.